0400 ayy yemm

And im feeling anxious + sad + heartbroken + miserable + ugly + pathetic + unappreciated + betrayed + dissapointed + hungover + confiused + (and all the unhappy things u can practically feel)


*sigh , HOW I WISHED I COULD TURN BACK TIME .

Why should i be giving second chances?

Because the things that i do not tolerate most are

LIARS ,

TWO-TIMING ,

CHEATING

scumbags !

im done.

CLAP CLAP CLAP !

Ever since my major mayhem with dwelling in dissapointment over the past movies ive watched in the movies recently, finally its getting better. The last two movies i watched,

The Twilight Saga, New moon and

Ninja Assassin

was very satisfying, money well spent! *smile lebar-lebar* Especially New Moon, where i cant wait to go see it again next Tuesday with my Uitm friends, Adam & Rei :) Urghhh, talk about the hot, heartmelting Jacob Black. He takes my breath away *melts*. HAHA

Recently, im having paranoia and feeling sorta traumatize being in malls. Afraid of seeing something i dont wanna see, not in a million years. Some pain never seems to heal, especially when it comes to the matter of the heart. No worries, im okay.

I got less than a week till sem break ends, and honestly i cant wait.

Lacking lack lack

I had a less than two hour sleep lastnight. My head hurts like hell, literally. A good girl like me, aint use to staying up all night, didnt slept the whole night what-so-ever. Never been there, so yeah :) Stayed up last night to watch "500 days of summer". Three words, NOT WORTH IT ! dang, i so didnt get the message of the story. It was booring! "The orphan" was million times better. Later on, when i was about to sleep, my sister had this stupid plan to go see some "bapoks" in KL with her fiancee. And i was forced to tag along. Later, we head over to Mcdonalds Bangsar for some breakfast and end up being at home at around 530+ am. Went straight to bed, and woke up at 715am because i promised Aiqal we would go have breakfast together. And we did. Hung out till 1045am. And here i am at home, blogging. Cant seem to fall back to sleep. Might be going out to the movies in a short while, and my head is seriously annoying me, period! I need some sleep :

ps, Ive closed my myspace account for the time being. Why? because there's just too much drama going on there. Im getting use to facebook now. Catch me up there okay mates? Ohh, do add me up: Leyaa Mazlan.

And plus, ive also changed my phone number. Boyfriend's idea. Gotta deal with it. I'll text you guys (close friends) my new number okay? :))

LOVES xx

Tell me that perfection is so overrated

Im not expecting for you to always be there when i need you. I dont expect you to say all the right things at the wrong time. I dont expect you to give me nice things. I dont expect you to support and be my backbone forever. I dont expect you to call me everyday in the middle of the night. I dont expect you to be spontaneous and romantic at some random time. I dont expect you to always give me sweet words that could make my heart melt. I dont expect you to be there when im all alone in the big city. I dont expect you to hold my hand all through my life. I dont expect you to calm me down when im all confused. I dont expect you to see every single thing through my perspective. I dont expect you to come all the way on the other side of the city because im all alone there. I dont expect to see you first thing when i get back from college. I dont expect you to always be the guy of my dreams. I dont expect you to always laugh at my lame jokes. I dont expect you to laugh and cry with me on some circumstances. I dont expect you to make me laugh when im sad. I dont expect you to understand me and my feelings. I dont always expect you to get my moodswings. I dont expect you to give me useful advices when im all bundle up in a mess. I dont expect you to hold my hand so tight when im about to slip away. I dont expect you to stay with me all the way when im scared and sad. I dont expect.. im not expecting baby.

im just hoping for it.